Trying to spill my emotions about Sam/Steve
I am morally, socially, and in all other ways obligated to flail a lot about the incomprehensible, overwhelming amount of things that Steve Rogers feels about Bucky Barnes. Because, well, I have a lot of feelings about his feelings. Readers be advised — everything beyond this point is spoilers for Captain America: The Winter Soldier. And I mean serious spoilers — like for the entire movie. Everything. You’ve stopped reading if you haven’t seen it, right? Okay!
Steve Rogers is the man who always stands up. He never runs when faced with an unfair fight, and he never surrenders — not when he’s 95 pounds of health problems held together with nothing but spirit, and not when he’s a serum-enhanced, 240-pound wall of muscle. But when he first sees Bucky’s face, he just lets it all drop. Faced with a Bucky who does not seem to know him (screaming, desperate emotions about the fact that Bucky knew that he knew Steve to come at a later date) — or in fact, his own name — Steve Rogers, quite possibly for the first time in his life, gives up.